It's the middle of the night and I am awake again!!!!

The last days (ok weeks too)  of waiting to head to China remind so much of the last days (and weeks) of pregnancy.  I CAN'T SLEEP!  I did manage to go to bed at a normal hour last night, but at 2:30 my eyes popped open and I have been WIDE AWAKE ever since! 

So what do I do in the middle of the night when I CAN'T SLEEP?  I first lay in bed hoping and praying that I will go back to sleep?  When that doesn't work (it rarely does), I get up and head to the living room.  I used to be able to watch tv, but now... that wakes Zachary up.  The boy needs his sleep... so I have resorted to the computer!!!

I start by checking my email (all 3 boxes) and then move to Facebook.  Not much to be found in any of those.  Next I move to a China Adoption Board to find that not much has happened since I last checked it.  Finally, I go down my list of adoption blogs and see if there are updates.  Tonight, I found a few new posts.  One blog sounded like many of my blog posts.  Hurry up and wait!  What takes 2 weeks for some, takes 4 weeks for us!  This particular blogger was sharing her heart, and while reading I was understanding everything she was saying, as we have walked through it.  She wanted encouragement.  I understood, as I have needed encouragement oh so many times through this last year too!  So, what could I say?  I knew immediately, as I have been reminded of it oh so many times since I first posted about this passage of scripture in February.  God has allowed me the opportunity to share it with so many (both adoptive parents and others that are just struggling with everyday life).  As I wrote this blogger I was oh so thankful that I could go back to that passage of scripture myself and have it speak to me again!  Isn't God's word so so amazing?!?!?

So, here we are... at 4:14 AM while I am WIDE AWAKE, and I share with you again this great passage from the Bible!

2 Samuel 22: 31-37 "As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless.  He is a shield for all who take refuge in him.  For who is God besides the Lord?  And who is the Rock except our God?  It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.  He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights.  He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a blow of bronze.  You give me your shield of victory; you stoop down to make me great.  You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn."
From this passage:  "He makes my feet like the feet of a deer."  Did you know that a female deer can place her hind feet in the very same spot that the front feet were just in.  EXACT SAME SPOT!!!  Just like the deer, we can place our steps in the exact place that God wants us to be!  God is walking and guiding me (and I hope you)  through this journey of life every step of the way!  One step at a time! 



To go a step further then I have in the past with this scripture, the sweet reminder that God's ways are perfect.  That means that the Jennifer Stone plan of how our adoption should play out, or any part of life really is not nearly (ok, not at all) as perfect as God's ways!  That gives me a real kick in the pants!!! 

As we approach our Travel Approval (hopefully later today), I am reminded that God has lead us down this path of adoption and He WILL get us through it!  I fail at it a lot, but I am trying to make my steps in the exact same path of my Lord Jesus!!!